This Train will not Return

(early September, 2009)
 
Home is ...
Where I want to be
Where I ought to be
But it isn't where I am now

Will I find it?
Is it again out there?
My place on Earth
Do you search for me?
Do you long for me?

Call me!
Maybe I hear you
I think I was there
Some time last week
Though so far
And so long to be

Yes!
I hear you, though distant you are
Why so foreign?
... again?
Didn't I do this?
Was I not here before?
Such moments

But this time
There will be NO repeat
No deja vu to be
No back stepping to darkness

I know you need me
I long to hold you
And not be separate
No more the distance
If love is a train
Then home is like the brain
At the end of the line
Terminates there!
All OFF now
And stay

For THIS train
Will not return!