Run Away, Go Far

(3rd January 2009)

Had to be today ....

That stick to beat me with,
That cactus to sting,
That albatross for my neck,
Have all come today.

Why did it happen?
And why with me?
Why after so long?
We were so happy,
Gettin' along just great,
Till this morning,
And THAT.

Now he is away.
"Your fault!", she said,
She blames me,
But herself is the fault,
And her lies will spread,
To damn me,
And further confuse my soul.

I want to go back,
Get me a Tardis,
Go back, warn myself,
"DON'T FALL IN LOVE!"
"GET OUT OF THAT BED!"
"RUN AWAY, GO FAR!"
But what would be?
Without her or him.

I would be weaker,
Would be further,
Unloved and still needy,
Needing but without receipt,
What good would THAT do?
To change the past history,
I would not be going where I am now.