Once oh Once

(9th March 2013)

Once, oh ONCE you welcomed me
With smiles wide, open arms Now you greet weakly
And with tired eyes you come
To see me through another

But what? Why?
Did I snub you?
Was I not good son? Non-fitting?
Where did I stumble?
And why is the 'Welcome Mat' worn so?

I feel
An outcast from you
The runt of litter
Black sheep of white
And so we go
On to an end
Is the road narrow now?
Or did we turn in error?
You your way, I in mine
Are we lost to be unfound?
Or can it be ...
We are parted

So what next?
I had faith, I BELIEVED
THIS was SHE
And we HERE could lie
Together in the dream
The "love shack" at journey's end
Shangri-La noted
If Utopia not, then good times
And delivery from evil
And rage outside
There the wind blows, wild beats down
Smashes my sound
And now,
I was safe
I thought so, wanted

So often, so so LONG
Did I come to you
The road was long, I stuck
Not give up, never quit
Down and out, sank and swam
To endless trial and torment
This is IT!
Never ends
And that, my life will be