Mum

(1st January 2002)

He depends on me
He needs me
More than Dad ... it seems
I'm his life, his food
I change him, play with him
Wipe his nose

'd be hard without me
Someone to 'choomk', to give him love
To hold him, hug him
And tell him he's special, I love him
And need him like he does me
Different way

And what if ...?
Well ...
He could be ill!
Get hurt! Have an accident!
Oh God! NO!
Not my boy
Save him! Help! Protect him!
Don't go out!
Don't leave alone!
He might ...! He could ...!
Don't go near him!
Don't touch!
Keep away!
My baby!

I can't sleep!
He won't
Or can't, don't want to
Go to bed! SLEEP!
Sleep! Oh please sleeep!
This is torture!

I'm all alone
No-one to help
Got to ... what!
Why won't he sleep?
I can't survive this!
- but I do, I will
He needs me
But ... oh for eight hours!

Another nappy
I love it really
To kiss his little bum again
His funny legs
His little feet
I love it!
Come on, let's check
Have you? Did you?
Go on! Let me change you
You could use another one
Couldn't you?
Yes, yes for sure
Well, let's go

My life? Three things
Him, HIM and H I M !
Oh, and more him
What else?
Well, him
That little boy
Total joy, total love, all of me
In him
From me
Endless